How does one learn about oneself?

If we are not to be dependent on some saviour or authority then where do we look for light?

Being broken up with contradictory desires, having no love, how are we to observe? Does one fragment observe the rest?

Are you separate from the thing you observe? Can you observe at the moment of violence, at the moment of your anger, without the censor?

When the observer becomes the observed does contradiction disappear?

Can one free oneself from accumulated knowledge?

Is there dullness if I don't compare at all? Do you understand anything through comparison?